Being Enough and Still In A World That Tells You To Be More

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We live in an anxiety driven generation. We go over conversations in our head before we actually have the conversation, because we don’t want to say something wrong. We worry about the little things that seem so big because we magnify it. Anxiety builds when it comes to self-worth and confidence. Our beauty is defined by paper magazines and self-endorsed articles. Starting when you are only five, you are ranked by a letter grade. We worry about our future because from a young age every person and their mama will ask you “what do you want to do when you are older”. We are worried when everyone else seems to have life figured out and ours seems to be crumbling. We put our worth into the world that says our worth has to be earned or bought. 

I have fallen into the trap that the words of worthlessness, small, inadequate, and nameless are written in bold fonts all over my face. I have tagged labels to myself because of what I don’t like when I look in the mirror. 
I wanted to be loved.
I am like any other human and desire other human connection – affirmation. I fed myself with the compliments.
The world ensnared me with its whispers that I was never enough. I was never enough for the people who left in my life. I was never enough when it came to grades. I was never enough when it came to acceptance. I was an outsider to my own body.
You see there is thing that I did not realize – those were all lies.
Lies of worthlessness from a world that only sees worth through status and money.
When truth meets lies, the lies are revealed in the light that we use to see them in. I was always enough. I was always loved. I was always adequate. I don’t have to prove myself. I don’t have to figure out my whole future now.

I have a Jesus who tells me that I am enough, because He is enough. I am worthy, because He makes me worthy. I am loved, because I am worth loving. God doesn’t ask us to change our hair, our looks, or our grades for Him to love us. He asks us to turn our eyes from things of this world to things above.

Colossians 3:2 // “Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.”

My labels are torn off when I realize that my name is from the Jesus who created me. 
I am human. I want to have it all together. I want to wear a brave face when really I am breaking. We aren’t asked to wear brave faces when there are too many scars to cover up.  God never told us to just be brave. He told us to be courageous and give our lives to Him. Our lives include our self-worth. Our self-worth lies in His hands, and He already claimed in that we are good.

Genesis 1:31 // “God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning--the sixth day.”

If the God who created the skies that paint for Him and the stars that dance for Him calls us good, then that’s something to believe. You are worthy and not nameless. You are named sweetly beloved. You are wanted – constantly pursued by the Father who sent His Son to die for us just because He adores us.

I've found that when we stop letting people rule our happiness, we find joy much easier. I've found when I've stopped letting the world define my beauty, I feel much prettier. I've found when I let Christ guide my steps, my path is less lonely. I'm a go-getter and spontaneous spirit. I'm a person who often asks "want to have a deep talk" and often forgets to say "hi", because I want to jump right into a conversation. I easily forget to let Christ be the beat of my heart and the leader of my soul. I like to lead and like to do, but often tells me to follow Him and be still. Being still is hard for the person with chaotic mind and ambitious heart. There are chapters of adventure that I want to flip right to, but God is teaching me to be patient, be still, be present. God doesn't write boring novels, books that probably would put me to sleep. He writes page turners -- the ones that make you say "whoa. now, that's a good author." Like any other page turners, some of the chapters will transform us into the character He desires us to be -- there will be heartbreak, trial, and wounds. In the end though, our Author promises abundance and peace. Don’t get lost in translation when some of the parts in your life aren't too good or aren't what you wish it were. There is more to come. Just be still. Just know that you are enough.

For the girl or guy who is lost in the words and labels of our society, it is okay to wear your heart on your sleeve and emotions on your face. You are not weak, because you cry. You are not worthless, because you don’t know what you want to do yet. You don’t have to compare yourself to the person beside you, because they are probably doing the same thing. Your story is worth something. You are worth something. You have purpose, and you are desired. There is freedom when your chains are broken off from the world. 


photo credit; Bailey Hawley

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